Friends..

The past 2 weeks have been a real struggle as I had to fight with my conflicting mindset and my heartaches..basically, i actually let history repeats itself yet again.I felt that i really lost one of my best friend's trust yet again..

Well, the 1st time was after Os and I had a great friend in A(cannot reveal name).. We were more or less considered childhood friends, since we known each other since primary 2.We were always having fun every weekend playing soccer and stuff.And we were considered best gaming buddies as we usually help one another when we needed help.However, at that time i realised certain flaws in our friendship..He was a temperamental guy and he tends to ask me to help him all the time when he needs help in the game..like playing for him(sorry was really a nerd last time)I always gave in without complains as i dint want to lose a friend.But little did i know that the frustation was just accumulating inside me like the yellowstone ultra-volcano in the US waiting to explode..The day after Os was it..I decided to just tell him i wasnt helping him anymore cos i decided to leave my nerdy ways when i get into JClife.He was furious after that and we totally never communicated til like 2 years later?But even at that time,we told each other that we were both sorry for what happened Haha..but it wasnt the same anymore.there was this tremendous awkwardness and i think we just wanted to carry on in our lifes..


Now i cannot believe I actually let the same situation to strike me again -.-.But i guess this time it was more of my fault this time cos I was too sensitive all the time..i had been friends with her for 2 years plus now and to be true,i could trust her for anything cos we have few common frens.And i know that you trust me alot too..However, she had her own restrictions and I always fail to keep to my promise all the time i guess.(cannot reveal too much haha) I took her forgivings for granted and clearly this time i have pushed my limits too far.Moreover,I'm a very emotions based person and i am very rash in doing things.I'm really sorry for that.I need to stress on one point on my blog tho.I have always treat you as my friend and whatever u do to me, i just wish for you to be happy.:)




Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
And it feels like you don't care anymore